I was also thinking today how I once made a really histrionic post about Rumple’s anxiety disorder and how watching his struggle with it has been (since episode 7) the real honest reason why I am watching this show. As somebody who has suffered from this terribly, to say that I’ve been watching this story a bit closely would be TO LAUGH because that is such an understatement.
We have that old story of a wizard who can’t give up magic, but the twist that I’ve never seen except for this story is that - it doesn’t make him feel good, it makes him feel less awful. It takes away his anxiety symptoms so he doesn’t have to face them on his own.
You just don’t get portrayals of anxiety disorder that feel this realistic, that feels like this has been like to watch. And what’s more, his anxiety disorder has been important to the plot - his inability to cope with anxiety has caused or worsened almost every hardship that has happened to every character in the entire show. It is the driving force behind everything that’s happened. It has eaten everyone’s happiness alive, and that’s how it feels like in real life too.
So to see him finally overcome it, to see him say “I don’t need magic”, to see him face THE person that he is most afraid of, his shitty parent, who combined is his two biggest fears (abandonment and fate) without any help, protecting his family, that was so powerful and helpful to me, I can’t describe. I can’t even think about it directly without tearing up. It was so good to see him finally make it past it. I am so stupidly proud of this sparkly disco lizard.